Nicole
Kidman is
taking
a
hard
look
at
the
hours
of
her
life. 

The Big
Little
Lies actress has made
no
secret
of
how
her
emotions
have
evolved
as
she’s
gotten
older,
especially
as
she’s
found
herself
experiencing
new
moments
in
life
like
watching
her
children
grow
up
or
her
parents
passing
away.

“So
life
is,
whew.
It’s
definitely
a
journey.
And
it
hits
you
as
you
get
older,”
Nicole
told GQ in
an
interview
published
Nov.
18, “it’s
a
wake
up
at
3am
crying
and
gasping
kind
of
thing.”

The
57-year-old—whose
mother Janelle
Kidman died
in
September—added, “If
you’re
in
it
and
not
numbing
yourself
to
it.
And
I’m
in
it.
Fully
in
it.”

Nicole noted
that
her
emotions
are “even
more
so”
on
the
surface
these
days, as
she
raises
her
and
husband Keith
Urban‘s
daughters Sunday,
16,
and Faith,
13.

“Mortality.
Connection.
Life
coming
and
hitting
you,”
she
continued. “And
loss
of
parents
and
raising
children
and
marriage
and
all
of
the
things
that
go
into
making
you
a
fully
sentient
human.
I’m
in
all
of
those
places.”